Strong Tunes

Music in the lab is one of the reasons that I like working late. The fact that its much quieter and demented is also appealing. I just hate the environment enough that its a pain to work there. I know that its normal or not surprising both in science and in regular jobs to hate where you work. Life is hard. I am an optimist though, or an idealist, in the respect that I visualize a wonderful working environment with tons of toys and funds and smart excited honest people to work with. My job, on occasion, is like that. I am by now one of those bitter people I was dismayed to meet when I got to the lab. It is an organic thing that operates in ways that we do not fully recognize. Traits are past on, though experiences can change things for the better. Like having a fight with someone and having both of you be actually being better off for it.

you have to be the change you wish to see in the world. Thats what Ghandi said most loudly recently. Far as I can tell briefly, Ghandi fough social injustice in South Africa and India. He promoted Independence for India from the empire though nonviolent means. I have heard people say he was a womanizer, but I would still argue that the guy was a huge force for good in the world, and he knew what he was talking about.

So I will try again and more to be friendly and interested in what people are doing in the lab. I am shut off from about three people, middle ground with most others, and a couple people like me ok. Wait there are four people Im cut off from. Did I mention science isnt interested in one of the turdballs we launch around the globe? I cant wait until I can talk to that guy in the lab again, but I really barely respect him, and considering we used to be friends, it is at least a minor tragedy. I just cant fake it though, I need respect, and I need to respect people to want to talk to them more than at a base civility level.