Relaxation

Its really hard to think let alone plan experiments when you are desperate for results. If you dont run at the redline all the time, far fewer mistakes will be made, and ultimately thats like creating more time. Yes working round the clock at some points is the best strategy. A never ending deadline turns people into monsters though. Massacre. So how to get the relaxed feeling that it is ok to sit and plan an experiment instead of doing stuff. All the long steps we do in molbio tempt me to always run a reaction. Only half of my reactions work well enough lately.

So to relax seems to need some level of fulfillment. I can step back more easily when I feel like I have gotten something useful done in a day. I am without positive data in a long time. Its unfortunate and the reasons are manyfold, but that is where I am coming from. So I am desperate. So I am downtrodden. People dont like that. Labfolk refer to some past members as though they had A6 flu because they were not personable enough. I think thats too bad. I will be like that if I cant step up and turn the attitude around.

So some sort of autohypnosis involving mantras like "I did this and this and this today and that is good" might help. Visualization of future actions is really a great thing to do but it requires at least some positive feelings about the situation. Or extreme anger or something, which has never driven me in science. Anger burns too much and Im not going to try to do that now. So today I did a decent job. things may be way uneven in those wells, but I processed a large number of samples and I am excited to see the result. For which I will need a plan for tomorrow. Which I think I can make laters. Now is time to relax.